What shoud I do now.

I’m lying in bed a thinking I really should get up and do something with myself. Church started 30 min. ago. But my stomach hurts so bad that I really don’t want to do anything but lay around and feel sorry for myself. I think the reason it hurts is because I took so many pain killers because of all the heavy work I did yesterday. I cleaned out the fish pond. It really gave a need perspective on what pond sludge is. Yuck.
Self talk “Come on Diann, you’re 50 years old and your life is ½ over. You told yourself that you’d spend the second half of your life making up for all the things you did wrong in the first half. So get up and get ready for church.”
50 years seems like such a long long time. I’m just glad I don’t live during the time of Noah when people lived to be like 700 years old. Geez what would you do for 700 years, especially without our modern conveniences. Can you imagine being a sheepherder for 700 years? Can you imagine planting and weeding the garden every year for 700 years? Ugh.
Ok, I’m going to get up and do something, even if it is wrong. I don’t really feel very good but I’ve gotta get up. What should I do? Hmmm . . . . I realize I have about 700 years worth of projects I want to get done. It makes me tired just thinking about all the stuff that needs to be done even before I start on all my 700 years worth of projects. I’m going back to sleep for 20 minutes and then I’ll decide what to do.